Ricky is now about 3and
a half months old so we started the whole self-soothe, let him cry it out
method at bedtime. Since my last post lots of friends have given me suggestions
and shared their experience, for which I am very grateful. I have a friend who is
a mother of three and is trying to breastfeed for the first time. In her case she always put her babies right
to bed after feeding, no rocking or cuddling just gentle patting to reassure
them when they began crying. They are all independent sleepers and need no help
with naps. My immediate reaction was shit! I am so screwed, I always rock Ricky
in my arms, let him lay on my chest after a feeding and snuggle him until he is
fast asleep before putting him down. Am I forever trapped doing this? Then last
night I started thinking. Why am I in such a hurry to teach him to self
-soothe? How is rocking him or holding him until he falls asleep such a burden?
It’s not! I miss him so much that sometimes when I come home and he is sleeping
it’s a little disappointing to not see his little smile. It might just be my
working mom guilt, it might be that I am a first time mother and I feel like I
have to overprotect. I don’t know what it is, but I do know that I cannot be
alone. You know those times when your eyeballs burn and you want to just
collapse on the floor from exhaustion but you can’t because baby is awake, then
somehow when they are asleep you wish they would wake up so you can play with
them. It’s a totally insane thought process I get it, but maybe that is why we
are moms, that insane thinking is what makes us moms! Maybe Ricky is ready to
self-soothe, but when am I going to be ready?
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